Goals

I just realized I never shared what my current goal is. Since I officially weighed myself yesterday and realized I had 3 pounds more to lose than I had previously thought, I had to change my ticker that's right up at the top. My goal is 63 pounds - which means my goal weight is 150. I am going to try my hardest to make this goal happen by December 20, 2012. What's the importance of this date? I turn 30 that day. I want to make sure I enter the new decade of my life in the best shape I've ever been. I understand there is a long road ahead of me in this healthiness journey (it's a lifestyle change, not a temporary "fix") but this is the first road I have to take. Turning 30 will be a fork in the road and I am the only one that can decide the way I will take.

This is when it becomes not okay.

This morning I took a necessary step that I've been dreading - I weighed myself. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad. I weighed 213 on the nose. The last time I was this heavy was when I was pregnant with Parker. When I started my healthiness journey last time I weighed in at 212.8. Now, that means I gained all 30 pounds back PLUS 0.2. I know that 0.2 might not seem bad to you, but when it means I gained more than what I lost back - it becomes a problem.

The scale doesn't lie. (p.s. why can't I turn this picture around?)

I'm back on Weight Watchers as of today and plan on hitting up a meeting some time soon so I can get the new materials. I use the program from like 6 years ago (when I joined before we had Graycen) and am sort of interested in seeing what the Points Plus is all about - even though I hear it is changing again. 

I considered starting my membership at Snap Fitness up again, but decided it's not cost effective for me (read: I never go) I decided to buy an exercise bike instead. I am a person that loves using the gym machines and if I had one at home then I have no excuse not to use it. I plan on following the workout program that David is doing but would like this for some added cardio. I'm a cardio girl.

Alright, I better go. Time for me to start getting in my water so I can get this dang workout done for the day. 

Sticking to a plan is easy... when you make one

I'm such a ridiculous planner. I've noticed when I need to track my eating and water I have to plan everything. I open up my handy dandy Excel spreadsheet and start filling in the foods for the day (including their point value) - down to the snacks. If I make my meal plan I stick with it - 99% of the time! If I don't make a plan I have too many options and find it's very easy for me to veer off path.
This behavior happened this week already. I was making my meal plan on Tuesday and got side tracked by a super awesome website - SkinnyTaste - have you heard of it? I spent a good 1.5-2 hours on the site looking through all of the "normal" foods writing down titles so I could go back later and pull up recipes to make my meal plan off of it. There are so many meals and snacks on there that my whole family would eat - how wonderful!!!

Anyways... I didn't end up making my meal plan and have found myself aimlessly eating. No good. Now, here we sit on Saturday night and I have a cup of coffee that I'm finishing up, we just ordered some wings and cheesy bread from Domino's and the Vodka and Orange, Pineapple, Banana juice are waiting on the counter for me. Tomorrow is the ever-indulgent Christmas. I make Christmas breakfast and since we aren't going anywhere this year David requested chicken strips for dinner.

I guess I should finish up that damn meal plan so I can actually use it on Monday. That's when we go back to our regularly scheduled program since we have no plans for New Year's Eve.

28 going on 70

I have been telling myself that I'm going to start my healthiness journey again for quite some time, but I keep making excuses to halt the start-up.
I have some pretty important reasons to get it done this time. I have officially gained all 30 of the pounds I lost in 2009-2010 back; my knee is hurting way more than it ever has. Side note: I'm setting an appointment for a visit with an orthopedist as we speak; my clothes don't fit; I feel like crap; I'm beginning to notice how much harder of a time I have breathing when I'm going up the stairs - this is all just unnecessary.

My cousin and I are partners in our healthiness journey - which we agreed upon starting today. Well, she sent me a message on Facebook this morning telling me how she started already and made her meal plan. I made an excuse of how I was going to wait until Wednesday to start because I get a free entree at Noodles and free coffee at Caribou in celebration of my birthday tomorrow and I was taking advantage of them. If I keep starting 'tomorrow' I'll never do it. I just got pissed at myself and realized I need to do it now. So what I didn't measure my bowl of cereal this morning- I can still make the rest of the day happen. I am in control of my actions!

David has been supporting me and trying to cheer me on for so long and I keep falling short on my word. We bought a 90 day workout system from Best Buy a couple of weeks ago (totally a rip-off of P90X) for a super awesome mega deal (it came down to less than $7 with my discount) and we agreed we would both start it. He's gotten 13 days in and I have yet to pop it in. I owe it to him to keep my word and do it with him; I owe it to myself to keep my word and do it FOR me!

I saw this on Pinterest recently and it spoke to yelled at me. I'm tired of being in pain. I'm only 28 (ok, I'll be 29 tomorrow) I shouldn't hurt like this.